I wanted to share with you how the Lord Jesus has been revealing Himself to me in new and deeper ways over the past three years. God has been so merciful to answer the cry of my heart that Paul expressed in Philippians 3:10, “I want to know Christ.” I have longed to know Him better and He has been so gracious to reveal Himself to me in answer to prayer.
I am very blessed to have known our Lord Jesus Christ since I was a child. As a young girl, I came to know Jesus as my Friend, the One who was with me all the time, the One who delighted to take children on His lap and bless them. I loved to sit with my songbook and sing songs like “What A Friend We Have In Jesus” and “Oh How I Love Jesus”. Later I came to know Him as my Lord and Savior, the One who died on the cross to save me from my sins, the One who expected full surrender and repentance and obedience. As I went off to collage I came to know Him as Jehovah- Jireh, my Provider, the One who provided for me financially when I was on my own with limited resources. He provided clothes and food and money to meet my needs. I came to know Him in many different ways as the years went on: my Rock, a firm foundation for my feet, a solid place to stand when all around me was changing; my Refuge, the One to run to when I was hurting and needed a place to hide away; my Strength, the One to rely upon when I was weary and tired; my Comforter, the One to turn to when I was grieving and could do nothing but weep. Before I became ill I was part of two women’s groups studying about worship and I was learning to know Him in a deeper ways as my King, the One I bowed before and worshiped and adored on my knees.
Throughout my illness the Lord Jesus has been revealing Himself to me as my Sanctifier, the One that John saw in Revelation 1:14 “whose eyes were like blazing fire.” His blazing eyes of fire have cleansed my heart of much sin and purified my life to make me holy and set apart for His purposes. He has allowed me to “buy from Him gold refined in the fire” (Revelation 3:18) so that “when He has tested me I will come forth as gold” (Job 23:10). I thank Him for His love and discipline in revealing Himself to me in this way.
Recently, after nearly three years of trying many different medical treatments that have only made me worse, I have taken the Lord Jesus Christ alone to be my Physician. He is now revealing Himself to me as my Healer. “For I am Jehovah-Rapha, the Lord who heals you.” (Exodus 15:26) He has graciously healed my mind and soul and heart, and by faith is now healing my body. More importantly, He has revealed to me how completely sufficient He is for every need, whether physical or spiritual. At every point in my life He has revealed Himself to be exactly what I need. He is everything I need and all I need. In Him are found “all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.” (Colossians 2:3)
My dear sisters, what do you need? Are you grieving? He is our Comforter. Are you lonely? He is our Friend. Are you tired? He is our Strength and Rest. Do you need money to pay the bills? He is our Provider. Do you need forgiveness? He is our Savior. Do you need healing? He is our Healer. Whatever it is that you need, He is that. All our resources are in Him. He is everything and all. Only look to Him. Spend much time in His Word, for it is there that we meet Him and where He reveals to us all that He is. Every situation we face is an opportunity for Jesus to reveal Himself to us in new and deeper ways. “And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:19)
I long to be with all of you again and weep thinking of the day the Lord will grant me this desire of my heart. I pray He may be merciful to me in allowing it to be soon. I love each of you deeply and am so grateful for you. If there is any way I can pray for you or encourage you, please let me know.