YAHWEH HAS TO CHANGE ME
First, performance, I cannot do. I cannot change myself. I do not have the ability of myself to stop sinning. If it is to be done, Yah must do it. So He gets the credit because he does the work and if He doesn’t do it, it isn’t done.
YAHWEH MAKES ME WILLING
It is Yah which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure (Philippians 2:13). It is not of him that willeth but of Yah.(Romans 9:16)
Whatever Yah demands, Yah provides! I have said in the past, “You must be willing to leave your sin”. But I have learned that if you are willing, then you deserve the glory and break the principle of “Thine (that is, Yah’s) is the glory.” If Yah wants the glory. Yah must do the work! Our Abba will not accept natural willingness which says like the older brother in the parable; “I will go”, and does not go. Admittedly, you must be willing to leave your sin, but Abba has to work even that in you. And when He does, it will be to will and to work not of his great misery, but of His good pleasure. Abba must do the doing in the doing, or else He would not have the glory, or the credit due to His Holy Name. He must also do the willing in the willing. Many times I have sought to make myself willing, but Abba has to do a work before I surrender. He may have sent a plague that makes me go whether I want to or not. He may have to put me in a whale’s belly or under a cold water faucet. But it is a work that He alone does and therefore when it is done, He alone gets the credit. So then, what is left? If Abba does both the doing in the doing and the willing in the willing, what do I do? Where does my responsibility come in? Do I say “What is to be? What will be?” Am I waiting for Yahweh or is Yahweh waiting for me? In other words, what will Yah (in his sovereignty) do that I (in human responsibility) can’t do, and what will Yah not do that I must do?
I MUST CHOOSE
I have a choice. In fact, the freedom to choose is one of the god-like qualities that separates man from the rest of creation. Everything but man is under compulsion. A caterpillar must turn into a butterfly, a tadpole must turn into a frog. They don’t have a choice about it. But man was made initially in the image of Yahweh and even though he has now fallen from that image, it’s only an evidence that he has the ability to fall in his choice. So, while I can make a wrong choice, thankfully I can also make a right choice. How do I define my choice? “Abba, I am not willing for Your will, but I choose it: I am willing to be made willing!” I stop fighting Him about the situation and start inviting Him into it. This is our responsibility. The Bible says “Choose you this day whom ye will serve” (Joshua 24:15). I will serve either Abba or someone/something else. But I do have a choice. We need to recognize that the spending power of Yahweh Almighty is determined by the choice of His children. Psalm 78:41 says “They (the Israelites) limited the Holy One of Israel.” The Unlimited One may be limited by our choice. The heart may choose to be a god and rise in pride or humble to Yah and find grace.
When we make the right choice, Abba sets the cement, he fixes it. He meant for us to enjoy our wonderful salvation, not just endure it. So He does all the work. He does the doing in the doing, the willing in the willing and fixing in the choosing. All we have to do is acknowledge Him in all our ways (Proverbs 3:6), that is, confide in Him rather than hide from Him, invite Him rather than fight Him. Dare I invite Abba in? When I do … He has promised that if I do, He will direct my paths.