Around the age of seven, I told my dad that I wanted to let him be the keeper of my heart until I found Mr. Right. Then, I really didn’t understand why I did that. We’d been learning about it, so I thought that it was what my parents wanted.
I am part of a group called Bright Lights, and at one meeting, our dads were supposed to come with us. They showed us this great movie called “The Return Of The Daughters”, produced by Anna and Elizabeth Botkin. Different young women shared testimonies of how they were staying at home until they found a husband, and at the end, the producers left us to choose between two choices: follow the world or follow God. I really wanted to follow God, but I wasn’t saved, so I was trying in my own flesh and I wasn’t getting anywhere.
Last September we went to a Gospel Sing. Friends of ours were singing, and at their table they were selling the exact same movie I had seen at Bright Lights! My parents let me buy it. I watched it again, and this time I let it sink in. But I still wasn’t saved, so I still was getting nowhere.
My friend gave us an invitation to a “Do Hard Things” conference video at her church. I told her we would try to make it (we were moving at that time). We did make it and I really enjoyed it! At the end of the second night I was not very pleased with myself. I felt angry, scared, and sad all at the same time, on the way home I was just in tears. I told God that I wanted Him to save me, and now I feel so much lighter!
I told my dad that I was going to stay at home until I find the perfect man. Now I’m not saying that a career is wrong; I am going to have a career, but I’ll do college through satellite. It has been a struggle but God is so amazing and I know He will prevail!